Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thanks for the concern from my girls, but I am feeling better mentally and at heart. Life's been pretty much monotonous but well, just hope that it will be more colourful next time.
Anyway, I was at NTU from noon to evening yesterday, since Dear has no time to meet me anywhere else. Lol. It is like meeting him in a very 'bright' place, with at least more than 3 'light bulbs' most of the time now. Hahaha.. Ok, just joking. Hardly have any time alone with him, now that he has to rush to meet project deadlines every week. So I have to meet him whilst he work with his group. But as usual, they are fun people. Hilarious and enjoyable. All of us went to Suntec to visit the toy exhibition, being held there now at the Convention Hall, at about 7 plus at night, for his project of course. The exhibition was really cool. REALLY cool. Went off only at about nine plus and had a 'near-death' experience in the lift. The thing was that many people squeezed inside the lift and we thought it was going to beep to signal overload. It did not, and started to move. But then a few moments later, it suddenly stopped at mid-way between level 5 and 4? And it was a shaky sort of halt. :S So everybody in the lift were like, 'What's going on?' and at this point of time, Dear's friend thought it was funny to say, "Oh no, lift breakdown, there's only so much oxygen to last us all." Hahahahahahaha! Damn funny la! I don't know if he was really trying to be funny or trying to lighten us up. Anyway, we pressed the alarm and the lift started to lurge downwards on and off and while it jerked downwards, we could hear the clanking of the chains outside, like it was going to break and free fall downwards. Damn scary la! Finally, the doors opened at level 4, and the lift floor was like about 15 inches below the floor outside. Super scary. And everyone just got out of the lift hurriedly before anything else might happen. It seriously felt like the lift was going to free fall la.. Sort of like the deep breath before the plunge when it suddenly halted and lurged.
Going to be quite busy these 2 weeks. Having lots of outings and stuff. Finally time to have some relaxation.
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:16 pm-
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
It's the point of time when I want to scold EVERY single vulgar word. Life just SUCKS right now. And I am NOT getting out of it. WHAT THE F*** IS SO DIFFICULT? Don't ask me.
The feeling of being trapped. I don't like it. I really DON'T. I NEED to shake it off yet I can't.
I want a break and some relaxation, away from it all, some escape, maybe temporarily, yet it is not there, not mine to take, no means to take. A TRUE BREAK. After 3 years, I wonder if I had had enough. The body is tired. The mind even more so. It can only go slower, in other words, become more stupid. I studied, I worked, and I studied and I worked... Yada yada yada. I crave for more excitement, more life experience, more love, more happiness, more hope, more peace. Lately, the craving is driving me nuts. I need to BE happy, I WANT to BE comfortable. I JUST WANT TO SLACK NOW ALRIGHT? !%^@%##(!&(*!&@(#!)*I)!IJ@&(
I feel like a stupid B**** feeling way too screwed up and whining away now. I don't care what YOU think though. Just don't FREAKING PISS ME OFF. I am not the ONLY one in this world, I know that VERY WELL, thank YOU very much. BUT NEITHER ARE YOU. YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU and ALWAYS YOU. HELLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOO?! Is there a ME? I am transparent? Invisible? Yes, I am NOTHING what, I agree with myself right? A bloody damn NOBODY. Who am I? WHO ARE YOU?
Maybe YOU shouldn't come near me. I BITE. And I swear I am feeling like I CAN TEAR YOU INTO PIECES RIGHT NOW. ANYTIME.
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:21 pm-
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
The weather is SO FREAKING HOT. And of course, it doesn't help to make my mood better in any way. Succeeded in making me easily irritated. (-.-) I should focus. Sighz. Anyway, I STILL have not decided what to do. It's such a bad time to be in a dilemma.
Haven't started running at all though I critically need to. :S Shall make myself run later. I think my stamina would have long gone.
How I enjoy slacking at home as rightfully I should be doing in the hols.
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-2:12 pm-
Friday, June 13, 2008
It just sucked today. TOTALLY. What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to feel? Why is it all so negative? Is it me or what? Super pissed and irritated, confused and nauseated, sad and demoralised, guilty and feeling like a dumbass, disappointed and exasperated. Spiralling down. Moody and worried. Spiralling downwards in acceleration. What the hell is wrong? My choice or yours? Acceptance or denial?
I JUST want to live my life happily. AT LEAST, even if it can't be a bed of thornless roses, I would like it even if I get a few pricks here and there sometimes. But why must it be only a sea of thorns right now?
Don't bother about me. I am ranting.
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-1:15 am-
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I am so sian these days again. After all the relaxation, it is back to Earth with a big smack. Sighz.. Today was the first time I went for Vinh's trial, felt so goondoo and was so tired after that. I was in the lab from 11 plus to 5, with a lunch break in between. Don't really know what I am doing la. Seriously. And I've got to go back to school regularly from now on. He has not even specifically set a date for the end of the trial! *Sheesh* For sure I don't feel like going back to school from now till the official start of school. For heaven's sake, it is my holidays!!!! What the f***. And tomorrow morning, I got to meet Basheer again, but I haven't even think about what project topic I am going to do if I am going to do with him. Everything about Honours project just sucks. And I have to endure it for another year. ARGH. What the hell.. Why did I choose Chemistry?! Sure, it was interesting at first, but really, I don't know why I chose it 3 years back. It's all fuzzy now. Anyway, maybe I am just too tired today. Feel like crap. Sianz. SIANZ!!! ARGH!!!
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-9:27 pm-
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Watched Click 5's concert on Sunday night at the SG indoor stadium at Kallang. It was great! They are very good live. So cool! And most importantly, the lead singer is so 帅! I think a lot of people turned up just for him lor. Maybe I am getting old or something, but most of the people who went for the concert were like teens. Hahaha.. Dear was like saying we can blend in. Ya right.. Act young. Anyway, it was a great concert and people were really high. We were at the free-standing area below the stage. So we watched them really quite upclose.
Went to the zoo today with Dearie! Hahaha.. But it rained heavily in the morning on our way to the zoo. Woke up early to prepare sandwiches and salad. Felt like a housewife. (-.-) Irritating. Why must girls be the ones preparing food? But then again, I am not sure if I will dare to eat anything my Dearie prepare.. Ooops. (^.^) We reached the zoo at about 10 plus, had breakfast outside the entrance while waiting for the skies to clear. It stopped raining a while later so we managed to enter the zoo before 11 am. It was a nice weather, cloudy and cool, with not much sun. There are a few new things in the zoo, and they are renovating and adding some more new stuff. There'll be boat rides, new shows and children play area before the end of this year. Took so many pictures until both the camera and my handphone ran out of batt and we had to use Dearie's not so good phone camera to take the rest of the pictures. It was a relaxing and happy day at the zoo with Dearie. Saw many stuffs that I haven't seen before. We really combed the entire zoo. Hence the aching feet and splitting headache now..
After going off from the zoo at about 5 plus pm, we took the bus back to CCK and went Lot 1 to walk around and have our dinner. There's a new wing at Lot 1, though it really wasn't anything much. Just a few more shops. Foodcourt's been moved upstairs, and prices rocketed! I mean, come on la! $5 for char kway teow and hokkien prawn mee?! Seriously.. I can get Mac's meal with $5 and probably be more full than if I spent $5 bux on a small serving of char kway teow or hokkien prawn mee. Food prices are really all-time high. They have a few new restaurants at Lot 1, New York New York, Ajisen teahouse and MOF (Japanese sweets and coffee). Had Hokkaido icecream from MOF after dinner of course. How can Dearie and I miss that out. Lol. Very nice ice-cream!! The best thing that can happen is that they have got a new Cotton On outlet there!!! Which I did not notice on the way in. Haha.. In the end, I bought a dress and a sort of long vest cum top from there. So good la! Next time I won't need to travel to town if I want any Cotton On stuff. (^.^)
Contact lens arrived today!! But no one was at home to receive the post. So sad. My mom's going to help me collect the thing from the post office tomorrow. :) For now, I have to sleep. Tomorrow is the second last day of work. Yay!
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:04 pm-
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Friday was results released day, and it was totally shocking! Instead of being 'cui' as I thought it would be, it was good! Phew. So 激动 when I saw the results finally, after being so tensed up and scared at work the whole morning. I almost puked. I thought they might make a mistake so I re-checked and re-logged in and checked till the com hang. Hahahaha.. Well, it's just me to imagine the worst. Anyway, I celebrated with Dear on Friday night, went Swensen's to feast and yes, there goes my 减肥计划 again, with the big 1-for-1 yummy sundaes, ocean salad, mushroom soup, cheese sticks, grilled fish and blueberry apple italian soda. Yummy sundaes!! What a good deal. It was the last day of the coupon use, and everybody seem to be flocking to Swensen's to make good us of the coupon. Had Hazel Daze and Frozen chocolate malt sundaes. (^.^) Let's see, today is Sunday, so my 减肥计划 can start tomorrow. New day of the week ma...... LOL. Kk, must be determined this time.
Anyway, tuition for one of my tutees has started yesterday, Sec 3 chem, quite easy to teach and luckily she's a nice student. Not lazy lazy kind. Wahahaha.. The P5 kid's starting tomorrow.. Hope she'll be good too. But seriously, I don't really know how to teach Science la.. Nevermind.. Shall see how tomorrow. Work is ending this coming Thursday.. Meeting Basheer on Friday to discuss about projects.. Seriously don't know what to discuss man. Many online stuff coming soon.. Yay!! Finally..
Will be watching Click 5's concert at the SG indoor stadium later today, Dear got free tickets from his cousin. Lol. Wonder how it'll be like. Taken leave for Tuesday, to go to the Zoo with Dear! Lol! Haven't been there for a long time.. :)
Shall take a short nap now..
My results! Finally after 3 years, my CAP is above 4! Happy!
2007/2008 Sem 2 Examination for SCIENCE 3
CM3211
Organometallics
B
CM3242
Instrumental Analysis II
A-
CM3291
Advanced Experiments In Organic & Inorganic Chemistry
A-
EC1301
Principles of Economics
A-
GEK1001
Place, Environment and Society
A-
CAP: 4.02
...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-1:19 pm-
