Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug! Fug!

FUG TIMES INFINITY.

There you go.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:38 pm-

Anybody wants a new laptop? Got a brand new Sony Vaio unused selling at 1799 with all that came along with it at the time bought. Helping to ask around. No scratches no nothing, really all new. Ok. That's it. I have to continue to study hard tomorrow! Only 5 days left to mug! OMG. But, next Wednesday it's going to be all over. Yes.. It's the first time ever I end my exams within 6 days. Cool. I like this. Start late so that got time to study and finish them all at once. Yes!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:54 pm-

Haven't been blogging for the past week. Not exactly being a very good girl studying the whole day everyday but just nothing particular happened except studying everyday... Well, I'm a little behind time but nevermind... Exam is starting on next Saturday and I have 2 papers on that day. The most feared Analytical chem! OMG... I still don't know how to write mass balance equations! Damn.. The explanation in the text book is just as short as the notes but the questions are so difficult! Sighz.. Ok I shall get back to my physical chem.. Another scary one..

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-1:59 pm-

I am notty today.. Haven't studied anything! Oh no.. But wasn't feeling well.. Felt giddy just now after returning from school. Probably because of the weather. It was so hot and steamy when I went to school, feeling the heat on my head and in my body, but it was raining so heavily when I was on my way back. My arms and legs got all wet. :[ The wind was damn strong it almost blew my brolly away. (>.<) Anyway, so I went to lie on my bed and I fell asleep while in the midst of messaging Dar. Ooops. Just woke up an hour ago. Going to try and study physical chem.. Need lots of practice.

Gambatte!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:30 pm-

Eeuks! I haven't started studying though I woke up since 8.30 just now.. Slap myself. Hehe.. Nvm. Shall study later. Decided not to study in school. Don't have the 'feel'. LOL. Shall just collect my EN essay. :] Lalala... Hyper today.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:03 am-

It's another quiet happy day. Watching the last of the webcasts I am supposed to watch and reading poems and short stories.. Not that I am trying to be smart but these are for the EN exam.. So it's going to be a relaxing day. Going to school tomorrow to collect EN essay and so 顺便 study there. It's raining soon! Anyway, that day my 二哥 got me 200 g of Famous Amos cookies. Or was it 300? *Shrugz* Choc chip and macademia nuts... (^.^) So nice of him. Going to enjoy them.

And so starts my studying time. I am home alone. Scary. (O.0)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-2:55 pm-

Happy today... But I slacked the whole day.. Went to teach tuition at 12.30 pm, then went to Dar's place. And that's it le. Haha.. We distract each other. Actually, no. I was happily eating green bean and barley soup, watching TV, reading newspaper... He was supposed to sleep but then, well... In the end, he couldn't sleep anymore. (-.-) He only slept for 4 hours and now he's out drinking. Sighz.. Make me worry.

Anyway, all is well.. I'm happier now. Dar's making me chill and relax with him around. 26 months and more to go. (^.^)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:47 pm-

And photos of cute 'tham jia' baby. She's my sweetie pie. Yes, I'm a mom already. Don't you know?

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-9:45 pm-

I've been quite a good girl today. Ya I know. Nobody compliments herself like saying "I'm good, I'm pretty, I'm cute..." Etc, etc.. Hehe.. But I always tell Dar that I am good and cute. LOL. At least to him, I must be good and cute. Then, I'll wait for him to tell me I'm a prettie. Ooops.. What the... *Shrugz* Kekekeke... Self-indulge in the white lies he tells me. He's such a glibber.

Anyway, that's besides the point. What I want to say is that I actually watched 4 Anac webcasts from don't know how many billions of years ago. And I actually understood what Toh was saying! *Congrats* And a deep sense of satisfaction to see my notes filled with my tiny handwriting. Yup! I reprinted the notes and watched the webcasts. Achievement.

Hope this mood keeps up for long. I LOVE studying. Believe. *Nods* furiously.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-9:35 pm-

Today is a not so bad, not too good day. Hmm. Firstly, in the afternoon got back inorg test which turned out to be not bad. But the thing is the marker emailed me to ask me to bring the paper back to him as he wants to look at my question 4 again. Wonder why. And if it is bad. Sounds like he wants to take marks away! I shall argue with him to protect my precious marks. He better don't make me upset. Or else it's shit for him. (-.-) Cross my fingers. Have to collect my EN essay on Monday. Else I would have just asked him in the email what he wants with my question 4.

Ok. Then, got back Anac which is, well, lousy. But not that lousy as I expected. But, still a really traumatizing experience. Finally, the last test of the sem for PC, which is good. Only 1 mistake after verifying with the notes. Yes. Recently, I got the panic attack and wants to absorb ALL the marks I can get. Like it is the only thing that matters. *Fug* (I shall not be so vulgar but to use a similar-sound word.) I am, what do you call it? Marks or grade conscious or whatever these few days. I JUST WANT TO DO WELL OK? HUH? CANNOT IZIT? VERY HARD HAH? Damn bloody sianz...

Hell. It is the first time I experience such severe stress and handling it so badly that I cried my lungs out for no reason at Dar's place today. Like I said, my mood's taking an ultra exciting roller coaster ride that makes me feel like puking at times. I think I'm losing it. I just have to concentrate and study hard. It is not difficult and I must be positive.

Sorry to Dar for me being such an idiot. Think I scared you. (o"o)

Everything will be fine. Yes. Believe. This is what you told me. (^.^)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:53 am-

OMG. The roller coaster is plunging. Just look at the mark distribution for Anac test. JUST LOOK. More than half got 60 and above. Where am I? Right in the last range for the marks distribution. 0 - 40+. Gone. I am so dead.

Dying. Die. Died. Get it? I am DEAD!!!! ERGH!!!!!! !@#%623*^*#$&@())(!Q^

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:57 pm-

Woohoo... Seriously, I think my mood's taking a roller coaster ride. Super high. Striked out so many to-dos and now left with an MCQ PC test. No reason not to get A for this mod unless project screw up. BUT, I am 99.99 percent it WON'T. Great. Just the thing to save my Anac and Inorg. *Regrets* (>.<)

Anyway, that aside, (^.^) It's a good day. I am bursting with studious energy. LOL. Time for sweets with Dar.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:24 pm-

Boy I am so good today.

*Grinz*

Cross my fingers.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:35 pm-

I forgot how much 'A Walk to Remember' has touched my heart until I watched the movie just now on channel 5.

Love is amazing. It is everything.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-9:28 pm-

Analytical test on Thursday was super horrible. I lost 50 percent as I only completed the first question. Further loss is expected because I didn't know what I was doing for the first question. Sighz.. And it's all because of bad time management. The clock in the LT was spoilt and I did not have a watch! Terrible. Sighz.. I really have to work hard for analytical to at least get a B+! If not my CAP will sure drop. It's a really sad thing when I made it increase a bit over the past 2 sems. It is traumatizing. Anyway, I was so overwhelmed that I cried in front of my EN 1101E tutor when I went to see him regarding the essay. But thanks for his comfort and he said the same thing Dar always say, "It depends on the bell curve really, if you think it was hard, other people most probably thought the same way too!" LOL. But the thing is, it is really very traumatizing when you yourself knew you did so badly for the test to the point you know you already failed it. It is sad. I was so listless that I took the wrong bus twice to go back to Science. First, I boarded B thinking it was D. So I realised when it went a different way and I alighted at Design and Environment. Then, I took C but it was the wrong one again as I did not see that it says to Kent Vale. And so, I alighted at Kent Vale Terminal and waited for the same bus C to go Science. *Haiz!*

Anyway, I went to Dar's place after PC lecture ended and I cried again when I was telling him about the stupid test. I just felt so disappointed and angry with myself for not having prepared properly, not having a watch, not doing the question I know how to do. It just sucks. The feeling is damn bad. Like having seizures and panic and frantic attacks. Sighz. Dar then brought me out to the market place and he bought KFC again for us. And I bought 2 Cornetto deluxe, strawberry and black forest flavours. :] Only had the black forest one with Dar and it was really nice. Dar is so nice. Make me smile and forget my worries for a while. *Hugz*

Then yesterday, completed PC project in the morning at Gombak's Mac with Shao and Angel. Such an achievement! LOL! The final version looks pro and good. Haha.. Of course, we are the zai group.... Ooops. (^.^) After that, went home to supposedly rest and proof read the project but Dar messaged me and told me that the gathering at his aunt's place was cancelled and asked me if I was free. Of course I said yes! LOL. Forgot everything I was supposed to do.. But I deserve a short break. And we really haven't been out somewhere together due to my busy days.. And Dar said he wanted to take me somewhere nice. Heez. Turned out that he wanted to go to the Outback Steakhouse at Millennia Walk and so we went to Marina Square area again. Had a nice good dinner and Dar paid 95 % of the dinner. LOL. Because I just threw in a little bit of the almost $60 bucks dinner. Ooops. So bad. Nevermind. I shall treat Dar to a nice one after exams. I wasn't hungry but the burger that came was so humongous with a lot of fries. In the end, Dar had to finish more than half my burger and fries and his own pork ribs! Hehe... Plus we had this huge dessert as well, with a special name called A thunder from down under or something like that. Classic choc brownie and vanilla icecream. Too bad I forgot to take a pic of it. We were both too excited to try it. Haha.. But it was really too much. The brownie came in a slab and the icecream was a bloody giant scoop. Erm, bigger than the size of a tennis ball! And the scoop of whip cream on top was slightly bigger than a golf ball. There. If you can picture all this in your mind, you can see how big the serving was. The food was good though and next time, I shall try two of the appetizers on the menu that looks mouth-watering. Cheese fries and fried mushrooms! LOL.

Okie.. Shall study for physical chem test soon. I hope. Maybe a little TV first. Sighz. I am hopeless.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:13 pm-

I'm awake! Had a nice 1 and a half hour sleep from 1 pm just now... Yes.. Now it's 4 plus after washing my face, doing a mask and putting on fat-burning gel. LOL! Burn fats burn! Anyway, feeling loads better though still feel like sleeping somemore... And soon I'll feel like sleeping even more when I get down to study for another stupid test tomorrow. Okie.. Shall start now.

Miss my Dar and his silly jokes. He's probably still asleep now.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-4:18 pm-

Inorg test was horrible today.. Haiz! Wasn't in the right state of mind and wasn't careful enough. Sianz.. I think I'd rather have close book exams. Realised I don't really try and absorb when I know the test is open book because I would think I can look it up if I don't remember. But everytime either I forgot where the info is or I just somehow miss it. Sighz. So sian. Destined to have a BIG B for inorg.

Nevermind. Anac tomorrow. Must start studying. (>.<)

In pain. My bed looks inviting.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:59 am-

Damn pissed. Damn sian. RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT. Stupid test. Stupid supplier. Damned to hell. FUCK OFF.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:55 pm-

Sighz.. Another of my tops is not going to come.. So sad... BUT! I purchased a new one! Lol. So now still stands at 3 tops to come. And two are coming soon! Yay!

Anyway, bad news for me. (-.-) My mom is going to babysit for my cousin's friend. The baby only 9 months old! My god. Later the baby cry and cry I will not be able to study well. Exams are coming soon! Sighz. Don't know why she agreed to this. There's already upgrading work going on in my area here everyday. Plus the baby? = die. How am I suppose to focus long hours when there's going to be so much noise pollution? Wah lao. Damn irritated. And I thought I can have two weeks of peace to study for exams. Shall get Dar's keys and escape to his house if the need arises. Pissed off.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:25 am-

By the way.. I have very very deep eye bags. Oh no.. (>.<)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:40 pm-

Went to cut my hair.. Ok trim.. But the fringe is super short now.. LOL.. Anyway.. Bought a lot of stuff these few days.. Broke le! Almost. Hahaha.. Shall stop spending.. Or else really can die. Think I bought quite a lot of 有的没的.. 2 pairs of shoes, facial essence and masks, Nivea fat-burning gel, Sony earphones, Harry Potter book 7 preorder, tops and even lingerie. Plus cut hair, phone bill, transport costs and food, I am surprised I still have money left. And it's only 2nd today? OMG! Hehe.. :P But like Dar said, "I don't care, I wear cheap cheap u*******r." LOL! But no chance to spend at all after next week cos must 闭关修炼... Wahaha... *Pengz* Exams are coming!!!! Oh no... *Dreads*

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-6:53 pm-