**So Tired*

Chalet's over today... Went to work straight from there... Hehe... The work at Sushi Tei is not bad... But just don't like some of the people there... Anyway, first day of chalet and I couldn't stand not having my results so I asked Dear to check for me... Here it is... Not spectacular, no 尖头 (Play too much black jack with the guys) but I am satisfied...

CM1121
BASIC ORGANIC CHEMISTRY
B+
CM1131
BASIC PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY
B
LSM1302
GENES AND SOCIETY
B+
PR2202
COSMETICS & PERFUMES
B+
SSA2204
NATION-BUILDING IN SINGAPORE
S

CAP: 3.83

Ok, back to 2 days ago... Had BBQ on the first night there... Too much leftovers though... The guys are not big eaters anymore... Sad... Then, 2nd day went K Box... And met Dear for dinner at Billy Bombers Bugis where I had a SUPER NICE cookies and cream milkshake!! Yummy!! The guys were so obsessed with the PS2 machine that we didn't manage to do a lot of things... I thought we were going night cycling but in the end, we just played bridge, asshole dai di and blackjack for most of the 1st night... Then on the 2nd day it rained part of the morning and afternoon, so we were holed up at the chalet in the morning and holed up at K Box for the rest of the afternoon... But K Box was fun... Haha... So good of the guys to entertain us... Wahaha... And a great time yelling together!! I think ours is the only room that rocks sia! Haha... Hmm... Looking forward to the next class outing... Maybe we can go to the zoo or somewhere different for a change... *Grinz*
Dear seems tired this weekend... And he spent close to 500 bucks for some media player or something like that... Anyway, must make up for the little time we had these 2 weeks... Next week will go watch X Men and go shopping with him...
Okie! I shall sleep now... Pics next time... Yawnz...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:21 pm-

**Messed Up**

It's the day of the sacred Devilz chalet!! Haha... No no... Devilz is just the nickname of our class... Heehee... AND it is the day of release of exam results!! Hmm... Seriously I don't know what I am feeling now... Excitement and nervousness is a weird combination cos it makes you giggle and laugh every now and then suddenly, as though you are harbouring some sercet and the very thought of it makes you smile and giggle uncontrollably. Sigh. I don't think I can allow myself to be like this for the whole of the chalet. Will check later with SMS. Get it over and done with. But then again, I am not half as nervous as I was last semester. Funny. I should be doubly worried this semester I think. But maybe because I already have the 心理准备 that I am not going to do well this semester. Last semester was more like don't know how I would do so it makes the waiting nerve racking. But this time round I think no need for that. Heehee... Well, nevertheless, chalet-ing starts from today... Though I think this time round the turn out is not as good as the last. But nevermind... Will be in the company of my beloved fellow Devilz! *Grinz* Dinner with Dear tomorrow is doubly confirmed because he is definitely troubled... Yesterday a fight broke out between 7 of his recruits and he had to spend 1 night waiting for them at the provost unit (some kind of military police) while investigations were going on. And also other bad news. Sigh. So many things happened...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-10:34 am-

***Hot Hot Hot!*

The sun is BLAZING without mercy today... 二哥's queen size bed, 32 inch LCD TV and system had just arrived just now! Wow... I think he really knows how to enjoy life man... :) He's got his Lancer last month and now this... Must have planned it ever since my 大哥 was moving out to his new home... His new bed looks so cool! When can I have one too... Heehee... Anyway, it's really hot today... Wanted to go West Mall but the sun is so strong that I don't feel like moving anywhere... Haiz... Later at night there is tuition!! Horrible... But I think I must find a new tutee first before I let go of this one... At least must maintain an income or else it will be difficult for me when term starts... Anybody have secondary kids who wants to have Maths tuition?

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-1:19 pm-

**Tagged**

I was tagged by Qinning so ok I will be tagged.

1) Specify the gender of the perfect lover: A Guy lor... I won't go for anything else.

2) List down 7 qualities of the perfect lover:

Erm,
i) He must love and care for me
ii) Faithful only to me
iii) Responsible
iv) On the same intelligence level or higher than me.
v) Possess the ability to make me smile always, even when I am angry, depressed, worried or whatever, he must try and make me smile or laugh.
vi) Be sensitive to my feelings and moods.
vii) Taller than I am which is definitely easy. (>.<)

3) Tag 7 people

Eh... No one in particular... Hehe... Seriously, I don't know what is the purpose of tagging. But I guess it is fun to see what your friends want for their dream partner.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-3:51 pm-

**** Rolling around in bed**

Ahem, sounds dirty... But no, rolling about in bed in pain because of stomachache and cramps. :( It's raining heavily now and very cooling in my room. Best location in the whole house. Practically air-conned naturally. *Grinz* Ahh.... Time for a nap... Went to Causeway point with Shao to have lunch just now. Had Swenson's and Gelare. Heehee... Fattening plus I feel so bloated. Eeuk. Went NTUC to check out prices and stuff.
Feel like worming out of that nasty tuition tomorrow again. But what excuse can I give? :( Eeuk. Boring and tiring. Sit there do nothing. Sigh. Nevermind. Napping time now.... X)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-3:29 pm-

*So many questions in my head*

Just now I was asked a weird question. My 大嫂 asked, "Are you very stressed? Is it because results are coming out?" Haha... Since when have I given anyone that impression? Nervous yes. But stressed over it? That kind of feeling seems so long ago. Stressed over results for Os and As. But never for uni life. Take it easy. 看开一点。But no, she asked the question because I keep messing up my words today. Haha... Funny. I wanted to say birdpark, instead I said batpark. Then I wanted to say Apple Ipod Nano, I said "Ah no I" before I said the correct one. Anyway, brain not functioning I guess. Hehe... Went blog reading for a while just now and I realise most of us complains and portrays a sad and bleak life if not all. Why? I don't know. But I guess happiness is but a rare thing in our lives? Not really. At least for me. So I guess I am lucky? Or is it because I take things easy? Many I read wished they could be better people. I very much wanted to tell them they are good enough. No reason to change what you are unless you are such a bastard or bitch. I mean, these people probably won't even think of changing themselves. So at least you have 上进心. Which is some quality that people may not have nowadays. Look at my tutee. Perfect example. (By the way I wormed out of a lesson yesterday cos I had a runny nose. Bet she yelled, "Yes!" very loudly.) At our age, most guys are demoralised by army, they just want to get out of it, girls want good results and yearns to be prettier, no, more attractive is the phrase. Some change so much because of this. Like I don't know them anymore beneath the pretty masks they have tried to create. And guys. Like they have grown somewhat awkward? Erm, no that's not it. Just somehow different. :) Are these phychological or physical changes? I think both. Hmm, not that I am content with myself. Haha... I still have to attain 44 kg without flabs. *Grinz* See, this is what I am talking about. I think people of our age are quite 另类 actually. Cos we were right in the middle of progress, of changes in the environment, what we do, stuff like that. Life's been hard for our parents' generation. After us, life's been good and easy for them, their growing up. We are sort of... Stuck in between. At least that's what I think. Hehe... I know I still haven't found the goal in my life and I may never find any. I don't give much thought to it. Just living as each day passes. Taking what comes and accepting it. Sometimes it comes down to trying to accept but in the end I still know I will. :) I just want to be happy with myself, with everybody. Sometimes I wonder if Dear is the one in my life. Too early to tell. But sometimes, I lose faith in myself. I am afraid but I have learnt not to think and dealt with myself. He loves me now so I am happy with that. If someday he chooses otherwise, I know I will accept that too. It may also be me who changes. Who knows? The future is in our hands I believe. We have to work towards something we want, no matter how foolish the thing may seem, but I think this gives us some purpose, some hope in our lives. If I decide, I will work towards it. Otherwise, I may never reach it. Suddenly, I feel very optimistic. I also want all my friends, people I love to think this way too. :) Life is not all bleak. There must be something that makes you smile. Find it. Hold it. And cherish it. Think positive. In that way, you will find that you can be happy. At least most of the time. That's enough isn't it?

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-10:16 pm-

**Disappointed**

A wave of sudden tiredness and disappointment. Plus a bit of confusion. Sometimes I just cannot figure out the reasons. I just don't get it.

Starting work next Monday at Holland V Sushi Tei. Affirmative of dinner on Sunday with Dear. I need an escape.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-1:54 pm-

***Painful Lips again***

My lips are a bit swollen and red again... It is peeling at the rim and is painful... Haiz... I think it's because I ate a bit of prawn mee the other day... Sad... :( Hopefully it will heal soon... I've been drinking lots of water...
Chalet is this Saturday... So excited... Hehe... But silly Dear wants me to have dinner with him on Sunday... I'll see how it goes... Maybe I'll have dinner then go back to the chalet... Hope lots of people come... Right now got about 15 people going to stay already...
Went to fetch my 大哥和大嫂 yesterday night... They came back from Bangkok... My 二哥 drove there at about 5 plus and we all went Suntec to eat Carl's Junior for dinner... Then we watched Da Vinci Code... It was not very good... The book is loads better... But I guess it is ok la... Before the show started we were hanging around the UFO catcher shop near the cinema and we saw a soft toy cat that had its body halfway in the chute already... Haha... Just that its head got stuck... And we got very excited about it cos we thought we can easily get it... The first try was the closest and the funniest... Haha... Cos I didn't really know how to operate the buttons and so I pressed the button and let it go quickly not knowing that I have to hold it to get it where I want... So my brothers were like, "喂！你做什么这样快放掉?!" In the end the catcher reached down very near the chute but it squeezed the body of the cat further down the chute! And so everybody started screaming with excitement when we all saw the cat being squashed down the chute further with its face half distorted, forgetting all about my 'stupidity'... Hahahahaha... But sadly, it didn't manage to squeeze it far down enough!! And there we were thinking that we had it... Then my brother tried to perform the same stunt but it didn't happen again... So he wasted about $8 trying to squeeze the cat that had its body halfway in the chute already... So sad right! Haha... Too bad we weren't lucky enough... And the arcade there got House of The Dead 4!! New version with new features... Let's go there and shoot the zombies next time Qinning! Hehehe...
大哥和大嫂 brought home a lot of things lor! They spent close to a thousand there! I got a Harry Potter tee which is really nice and a pink top... 1 voodoo doll handphone accessory, Hello Kitty marshmallows which is black currant center filled (Shall bring for BBQ!) and 1 nice pink bag!! *Grinz* I may get to get another green one too... See how it goes... Heehee... Now I realise I have a lot of bags in my cupboard... I think got more than 10 already... :p Must get more tops... Actually I don't have a lot of tops... Shop next month! Wahaha... Anybody still keen on shopping? Contact me sia! Ok I think I am really crazy...
Today went to Holland V with Angel to look for waitressing jobs at Sushi Tei... The stupid woman at the reception just took down our names and contacts... Didn't even tell the manager or something that we are looking for jobs... In the end, later in the afternoon, the manager called and asked if Angel and I can go back there again for interview today... Crazy lor! I just got home only can! Think I very free ah! But anyway, going back there on Wednesday morning at 11 am... Hope he remembers he is expecting us or else I'll just give it up as a bad deal... Heehee... Then, so surprised just now when somebody from Recruit Express called me to say there is a promoter position he wants to give me... I think he is working OT since it was already like 8 pm when he called... Must be desperate... Giving $5 per hour plus commission if I manage to sell anything... So little!! He asked me to promote slimming products... Haha... What a joke... I have to stand on my feet for long hours and get possible dagger stares if I even dare to suggest to the woman she needs slimming pills? No thank you... I'd rather not... Haha... Don't want to get scolded man... Seems like no good jobs come my way... Sad... I just need a relaxing kind to pass my time can... Or if not relaxing then at least must be interesting ma!! Kaoz... Anyway... Think I'm going to West Mall tomorrow... Take a walk... Didn't manage to go running with Qinning just now again cos it was raining... Must make up for it myself tomorrow... :) I simply love the feeling running gives me... Some sort of relief...
Okie... My entries are getting longer and longer... Haha... That comes with not having any job... Haha...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:12 pm-

**Subdued**

Just had dinner at Jurong Point Swenson's with Dearie... He is so thin now after a week at Tekong and so many injuries!! (>.<) I was so shocked and felt sad... And he looked so tired... Said he didn't get enough hours of sleep the whole week... He had a 16 km route march yesterday at 2 am and only booked out just now at 4 pm... And he is going back in tomorrow morning at 7 am because he has duty!! Poor Dear... :( Haven't got a proper chance to talk at all the whole week and just spent about 3 hours with him just now... But we were happy nonetheless... Makes us cherish the time together even more... Was so 心疼 that he became thinner... Can see his ribs lor!! His foot was a bit swollen and he was limping... Sad... And he was super hungry... Like 非洲难民 like that... He had prawn hokkien mee at the coffee shop before polishing off a burger meal and ice cream at Swenson's... Seriously hope army will be over for him soon... Even my parents commented to me that he is very thin the other day after they saw him on Sunday... Haiz...
On a happier note, I am so glad that the calling thingy is over for me... So sick of it already... Looking for new jobs now... Maybe I should just go West Mall and see if there's any walk-in interviews for any of the shops there... At least it'll be near my house... Just do that for maybe a month and then change location for another month... Heehee... Haiz... Really like a bit 想得美... Haha... But nevermind... Rest a bit this week ba...
And another thing, I seriously don't feel like teaching my tutee already... She is really getting out of hand but most importantly the place is really far for me! Jurong West and I have to transfer bus at Boonlay interchange... She just doesn't want to study and she got back her exam papers already... Maths was ok, 40/50, Chinese and English really lousy man... 36/60 and 44/77... And guess what she told her mother when she asked her to "你跟我读好来啊!" ? She said," Aiyah! 不要紧拉! 都不用读书的!" She is totally spoilt by her parents I think... And so she doesn't care at all... So I am quite sian diao by me having to go all the way there but she doesn't take the effort to learn... Anybody who wants to take over me give me a sms! She pays 15 an hour, 2 times a week, 1.5 hours... I was hoping that her mother will fire me or something lor... I don't mind man... Don't care for that money for having an easy job but I am tired and I'd rather teach someone who really needs me... She is not stupid just plain lazy... I swear I'll never take on lower primary kids again!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-10:43 pm-

***Eating non-stop**

Recently, I have been eating non-stop... Like I just want to chew and chew and chew... Haha... Shit... Better stop this from tomorrow onwards... Getting fat at the wrong places... Hope the running with Qinning will at least pay off a little... Anyway, class chalet is approaching!! Every day is a torture waiting for it because it is a break and relaxation for me... Waiting to have that bit of fun... Hmm... Supposed to go running today with Qinning but she was not feeling well so it was called off... And instead, I fed on kit kats and cocktail nuts and marinda orange... How unhealthy and fattening can this get? Haiz... Must stick masking tape on my mouth le... Eeeks!! Go away flabs!!! I must jiayou with running and stop eating tidbits... 2 more shifts and I will be free from calling... I think I never want to pick up any phone calls or see the telephones at home for a long long time... Disgusting!!! Imagine getting rejected time and again and being forced to call those people who already said they are not interested in attending the seminar at all... And you get stupid people who hang up on you before you can even say what is the purpose of the call... And you get idiotic automated messasges who ask you to press so many different numbers and then at the end tell you, "Sorry, there is no one to take your call. Please try again." Or how about, " Thank you for calling blah blah blah pte ltd. Our operators are all busy at the moment. Bye!" Crap... The most ultimate one this morning, I called him to check the status of the invitation and to send a polite reminder that the deadline for the reply is this Friday, and he had me talking on the phone for 10 minutes!! "You're from where? Software pipeline ah? Make pipes one ah? Hahaha... (Like it's funny.) I never see your mail leh... Why ah? (You ask me? My superiors sent and resent it to you twice!) Aiyah... Very funny hor? Every time you send I cannot get the email... Why ah? Hahaha... (Totally sian diao liao) You wait ah, I check the junk mail... (.....)" At this point, he started reading out the titles and headings of the junk mails he have in his mail box... "Nowadays they send a lot of funny mails hor? Rolex watches, sales here sales there... What did you put for the title ah?" (How I know!? Not I send one what!!) So I ask him to hang on while I ask my superior... "Mr Tan, the heading is invitation to manage, control and protect .... seminar" "Eh, bo leh!" Here he continued to read out titles of his junk mail... "Ah, I see it already!" (Finally.) "You all from microsoft hah?" (I told you we are from SPL you dumbo!) "The email not you send one meh?" (No no, it is my superior who sent it.) "I see your name leh!!" (Big deal.) "There, it says yours sincerely Joyce!" "Wah! What kind of company is this ah? Hahahaha... You can call people, people cannot call you back hah? Must go through email or fax ah? What if people don't have how?" (If you didn't have computer in the 1st place I won't be inviting you to the seminar you idiot!) "Aiyah... I really don't understand you people ah... Everything email ah hah? Alamak... Really don't understand... Ok la, I read through the email 1st then I see if I can go hor... Ok? Thanks hor! Bye!" (-.-") My goodness, I really felt like slapping him... Grr... Wasted 10 minutes of my time... Biang!!! Gek lor... KNS... Now you know why I need to relax and have some fun... Puke blood sia...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:50 pm-

***Sianz**

Feel so sian man... Haha... Been doing calling since last Monday... Thank goodness it is ending on Friday... Going to look for another job again... Hmm... Any lobang please tell me k... Sick of it already...
My brother's wedding dinner is finally over... Was so busy the whole of Sunday... Life is so monotonous... Haiz... Why like that....? Anyway, later still have the bloody tuition... Going to puke blood again... So tired!! Grr... On a happier note, devilz chalet is coming!! Looking forward to all the activities and fun... Haven't seen them since CNY...
Poor Dear is now at Tekong for the whole of this week... Training for his men so he also have to go... Heez...
Really been a boring and tiring week... Good thing is I will have a bit of guaranteed income next month... Tuition fees and the pay for the job I have now... Yeah... So next month can shop already... :)
Yawnz... Wana sleep...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-6:29 pm-

***Happy but broke***

Hehe... Yes I know... It's only the start of the month... And I spent $400 bucks already!! Bought the dress, make-up, food, 1 top, my phone bill, food, food, and more food... My goodness... The make-up was almost as ex as the dress la! What the... And probably I'm only gg to use it once in a blue moon... Haha... But nevermind... My brother's wedding!! So happy for him... So far, I've been out shopping with Dear, Shao and Qinning... Watched MI3 yesterday at Great World City with Dear... The movie was really exciting!! The cinema there is good... It was the first time I watched a movie there... And we had ice-cream at the Ben and Jerry's shop... The place is big with lots of shops but we din manage to shop much... Love the Harris bookshop there though... Must go back there some other day... Went out with Shao on Thursday to Orchard... Bought a nice necklace to go with the dress just for 10 bux! Cos the shop was having a promotion... And it is even nicer than the one that I wanted to buy on Wednesday when I went out with Qinning to Bugis... Not to mention lots cheaper too... Heehee... Basically I've gone to the 3 big shopping areas... Meeting up with Linzie on Tuesday... Going for a job interview tomorrow... Hopefully something good comes out of it even though the pay is low... At least better than nothing... Really don't want to stay at home... Heehee... Or, something better comes along cos I am not really interested in this one... The pay's not fantastic and the agent says the boss is a bit bad-tempered... Well, see how... Shall go and see tomorrow for myself... Heehee... If I don't like it I can just say I've got another commitment already... Hope to start having income soon!!! (>.<) Okie, I'm going to watch TV... Things have brightened up becos my brother has subscribed to a new internet connection and SCV comes along with it for free!! Free for 3 to 4 months from now... So many nice things to watch... Hehe... Can watch world cup on ESPN in June... :) Happy!! So glad there's no school... Anything but school... Da Vinci Code and X-men 3 next in the cinemas for me!! Woohooo!!!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:04 pm-