**Yes!**

Today, I got my full tuition fees and allowance!! So, I am very happy and it means I can shop!!! Woohoo!! Gonna watch movie tomorrow... (^.^) SS test on Monday but nevermind... Hehe... Still got campus superstar grand finals on Sunday!! Not that I ever voted for any of them but I like to hear them sing... Been raining today and now I got three mosquito bites already and one on my neck somemore... Itchy!!!!! Anyway, I'm still happy today though very sleepy... I actually napped for 2 hours just now before I went for tuition but I still feel sleepy... Hmm... Shit... Supposed to watch webcasts... They are piling up already!! Got 6 now... Haha... Think I'll watch them all next Tuesday and by that time will have gone up to 8... (>.<) Ok... Going to read a bit of Harry Potter now and sleep again... Heehee... Bedtime reading...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:22 pm-

**Stupid weather

I hate the weather these days... Hot, sun blazing, making you perspire and sticky, then it rains, making it humid and even more sticky... Grr... Disgusting... And the weather today is kind of gloomy... Really grey and dark... Hmm... I like it when it rains heavily, really raging storms... Not when it rains in this way, like as if it is half-crying, then decided to keep its sorrows and 忍住不要哭... Well... Haha... Maybe the sky really has feelings... Okie... I better get back to clearing more work... I slept so much today... Woke up at 10 am today and I still napped for 2 hours just now at 4 pm... I'm so piggy... Heehee... Yeah! Finally , I managed to convince Dear to watch Ice Age 2 with me and also, we are going to try that new Jap dessert shop at Marina Square... Hehe... More fats on the way... But nevermind, can start working out in the hols! :)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-7:00 pm-

***Yawnz***

Went to his place today and watched Monster Inc... Haha... The little girl is so cute... Anyway, Dear's furniture arrived at about 4 plus and we started to assemble all the pieces... Took us a little more than 2 hours to D.I.Y all the 5 bookcases... Nailing, dozens and dozens of screws... Haha... But quite satisfied when we finally finish all the work at about 7... Now his room looks loads better and neater... :) Made me so tired though... Slept late yesterday... At about 1 plus... Finally got my LSM essay done but I don't know if what I wrote is relevant or good enough... But nevermind... It's DONE and I am so glad... Just to get it out of the way... Still have the discussion part of 1121 lab report... Man, I think I really need to write a damn good report or else I will fail the last experiment! It was a complete disaster on Friday and my yield was only a mere 18 percent!! My goodness!! Horrors of all horrors... And my crystals were a different colour from all the others! Haha... Seriously, it was so bad... The TLC turned out with nothing at all and I had to fake the drawing... Hmm... Haven't watch the 3 1131 webcasts I was supposed to watch... Must make myself sit down on Tuesday to get it done... Haiz... Feel so sian suddenly... Ok, lazy will be a better word... Just don't feel like doing anything, don't feel like moving... Eating more and more these days and getting fatter and fatter!! @#!$#!!$@ Well, hehe... It's my own fault... Can't control my mouth... Must stop eating so much... Haiz! (>.<) Shall have a healthy diet routine, exercise and get rid of all the accumulating fats... Yawnz... Must be resolute!! Stop thinking of chocs and ice cream! Haha...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:20 pm-

** BLOODY tired**

I am sleepy and tired so why am I still here? Anyway, I didn't do anything today even though I had planned to do my LSM essay... Well, reason is because I went out with Dear, accompany him to buy furniture... Haiz... Wasn't a good day though cos I was feeling like crap and having PMS... And poor Dear was tired himself and had taken a day's leave to rest a bit and get his furniture, but he still has the patience to try and cheer me up... Thanks so much for that dearie and love ya lots... :) Well, it took up the whole of the afternoon, just by travelling to IKEA and travelling back from there after buying the stuff... By the time we got back it was already 7 pm... And we threw out the old cupboards and shifted the furniture in the room so that there is space for the new ones... Wow... Certainly tiring and so hot plus dusty and sticky that I began to be damn irritated... Yes, definitely PMSing... Oh well... Anyway, I better start catching up on all the webcasts tomorrow onwards!! Have 3 1131 webcasts by tomorrow plus a 1121 webcast for the lecture today! Oh no... Don't have much time already... Still have that essay to be handed in by next Friday, add on another horrible lab report from tomorrow's 1121 lab, 1131 tutorial 4 by Tuesday, SS tutorial 4 by thursday which includes 4 readings and project editing on this Saturday! Where can I find enough time for all these shit?! And Sunday is gone because Dear wants me to help him with his room as the furniture will arrive that day! That leaves no weekend for myself... :( Maybe I'll just pon tomorrow's tuition for my P2 kid... Wah... Suddenly so busy... And yes, going to have a SS test on 3rd of April which is coming so soon! Got all those PR and LSM notes to read, all those SS readings too... Help! I think I am scaring myself... Shall go sleep and forget about everything...

Haiz... Really BLOODY tired. :(

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:19 am-

***Worried***

Haiz... Dear seems to be having problems with his men... His men are unruly and got lots of background problems it seems... And so he's getting stressed because they gave him and his colleagues a lot of problems... Hope he'll be ok... Knows that he is stressed because he was telling me he didn't have appetite... Always a sign... Haiz... :( And he sounded so sian and everything... And all I can do is listen and encourage him!! But I can't do anything else!! Haiz... Shall take care of him whenn he books out this Sunday morning... He has to stay in on Saturday... (>.<)

Anyway, watched V for Vendetta with Dear on last Friday night... Very nice show indeed and I must say I'm so impressed with the excellent, flowery, theatrical English V was using all the time!! Haha... When it comes out on DVD I'll buy it for sure!! And Natalie Portman had her hair SHAVED OFF!! My goodness... Just a 2 minute scene and her hair was all gone!! But it looked cool... Hehe... But the movie got too bloody and violent near the end... I watched the first person get killed and then I shut my eyes for that particular 10 minutes of killing (where throats were slashed and heads chopped and bodies mutilated all by V from what Dear told me) and felt tears forming in them... It is like so cruel and really horrible... Think that's something to do with like gallons of blood being splashed around... Can't stand the sight... Eee... Hope they cut off that part in DVDs... Dear was like laughing at me lor... (>.<) He said it's just probably red water or ketchup... Fine... Hmph!

Many movies to watch! Ice Age 2, Da Vinci Code, X Men 3, Pirates of the Carribean - Dead Man's Chest (My favourite Johnny Depp and Keira Knightly!) plus any others that may pop out... Haha... Maybe if I am crazy enough I'll go watch Superman Returns... Wishing holidays to come really quick!! And yes, without having the exams before that... Haiz... But they are unavoidable!!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:51 pm-

***Feeling Dejected***

Today's 1131 test was stupid... I mean I was stupid... How can I have missed out the stupid teeny weeny negative sign that I wrote down myself??!! And I actually had time to look it so many TIMES over and yet it eluded my sotong, blur and silly eyes... Grr... It is such a 'painful' lesson... Haiz... Suddenly panicky about tests and exams... Like Shao said today, quite a ....(don't know what word to use) to not see any good results... Just when I thought I really studied enough, this had to happen... Wah... Gek man... :( I guess there is NO such thing as "studied already"... It's NEVER enough... I'm grumpy and dejected and having severe mood swing and it's not even that time of the month... What the... Ayez... And bloody hell, there's another test next Monday... So much to do, so much to revise, suddenly realising that there REALLY isn't much TIME... How I wish I can make time SLOW DOWN, BORROW some time, TURN IT BACK even... Somebody SAVE ME... (>.<) No one out there... Because it's up to ME to MAKE TIME... Haiz! I am so 无奈 now... Been a long time since I felt like so serious about trying to make the most of my studies... The last time was like what? Primary school? Whoever think study is a breeze, PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR BRAINS... GIVE IT OVER THIS INSTANT!!!! AhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I am going to cry.

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:06 pm-

**Stupid Mosquito

I saw a mosquito float by across the computer!! It probably sucked my blood... Yes that's why it was floating slowly... Stupid mosquito...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-11:52 pm-

*** No idea **

Sometimes I really don't want to grow up... I'd rather limit myself to just a few emotions, not too complicated, no worries... But then again, when I was young, I desperately want myself to grow up... And now when I am all grown up, I still behave like a kid in some ways... What the... I also don't know what I am thinking of... Sonetimes I just feel childish all of a sudden and start thinking and doing childish things... Got that kind of like "I want everybody to love me and me only" kid mentality... I want my parents to love me and pay attention to me and I want my brothers to 疼我, I want everything! Haha... Ok that's kind of selfish... And of cos, this kind of kid mentality is just 想想 only... I will just become more 撒娇ish... Hehe... Now you know... Seeing kids make me happy becos they remind me I was once carefree... But now, there's many things to consider, other people to think about, wider range of emotions... I am over-sensitive (ok la, not that bad now), emotional (I can cry anytime over a little bit of 感动 in movies, in TV shows, in books, in real life...), silly to the extent of 白痴 in some ways, getting "blurrer" as I grow older (since when did I become so sotong?), haiz... I think I am a weirdo... Can't seem to figure out myself really... Except for the above that I know very well... I mean I can't figure out what I am thinking... Am I really childish or am I mature yet? Maybe I am older but there's a strong desire to be child-like and a part in me which is really 幼稚... And recently, the "why am I here?" question hits me ever so often... It's not a nice feeling you know, when the question hits you suddenly... I can't describe it actually and I don't think anyone can understand the 怪怪的感觉 unless they had the same experience... Hmmm... Weird... What is my belief? What is my aim in life? What is it I want for myself? Why are things happening like they do? What is the world going to come to?

No idea.

But I know I am already living in bliss now... So no more thinking...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:07 pm-

** Routine **

Everyone has different routines in their lives... These change as people age... You'll find yourself waking up everyday doing the same old things for a particular period of time... Study, leisure, eat, sleep... Except that the leisure part can be variable... You can do lots os things so I classify it as free time... Then, when you grow older, the cycle changes to work, take care of your own family, eat and sleep... Free time actually gets shorter! But you will have more variety of recreational activities... The only difference between the cycles of different people is quality... The rich will have more ability to spend their lives "richly" while the poorer souls have limited comfort... Funny how life is...

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-9:56 am-

***Why?***

Went to City Hall area yesterday... Planned to shop actually but I find that I can't seem to buy a thing with Dear around... Normally it is not like this but I think it's because he wasn't in the shopping mood yesterday!! So we just walked around looking at stuff and many interesting things... But yet 80 bucks was gone yesterday... I seriously don't know where all the money went... Haha... My goodness... Let me try and recall... I bought Mac breakfast for Dear and myself, about 8 bucks, then, went Watson's to buy contact lens eye drops and sponges which I think are about 15, emm, then returned 20 to Dear, a handphone pouch about 5 bucks, then dinner 20 bucks, taxi home 6 bucks... And blah blah... Ok... It is really about 80... At this rate, I don't have money to shop for other things liao... Haha... Nevermind... Next month will have more cos I'll have my full tuition fees... Anyway, had a really sumptuous dinner yesterday... Went to the 店小二 at Marina Square... The restaurant only opens at 5.30 pm for dinner and there was a queue starting at 5.10 or so... In the end at about 5.15 we joined the queue that was forming and thank goodness we did or we won't be able to step into that place... The waitress will actually take your orders before 5.30 first and assign your seats... With no table number you can't get in... So there were some usual ugly Singaporeans trying to sneak in pretending that they wana meet somebody inside... But the waitress is smart... Without telling her the table number, hell no she will let you in... I'm glad we waited there cos we got a place and the food was served really fast and steaming hot... Had the 招牌十全烤鸭, 店小二特制豆腐 and 三菇生蔬... It was good. Damn good!! Haha... Especially the duck... Go try it everyone!! Heehee... But I love the 豆腐 personally... Hehe... Ok, everything was really good... Even the veggies... Mushrooms! 3 different kinds of mushrooms... 草菇, 香菇, 鲍鱼菇 with brocolli... I really love mushrooms... The servings are quite big... Hmm... Shall go and try the 炒饭 next time... Though the 炒饭 is rather ex... But it looks really good... Haiyo... Really having a hard time curbing myself... I'm going to get fatter and fatter!!! (>.<) I still have dozen of things to do despite having felt like I have finished a lot... I guess there is never-ending work... Hmph! I'm in a weird grumbly mood... Like there's no end to what I have to do!! And I see people around me like this too... Feel so sad... No one's playing anymore... (>.<) I erased a few things off my whiteboard but there's still many stuff on it, and more to add on during the week I'm sure... And there's this CM 1131 test next week... Haiz... Haven't had the time to study... Was doing the rest of the work... Watching webcasts, doing tutorials and lab report... Ultra lots of calculations this time round and many things to include and explain... I should type my report I realise... When I collected my report on Friday, almost everybody typed theirs! I guess it's actually neater that way cos you'll not have correction tape or fluid all over the paper but I really don't want to spoil my eyesight... I'm afraid my short-sightedness and astig is getting worse... Got a little bit of astig... currently it is 50 for the left eye and 0 for the right... My left eye seems to be the one having more serious problem... Hehe... It's 650 degrees short-sighted... And my right eye's only 575... Anyway... It's so troublesome to type the report cos I am not really fast at typing though it seems to have improved since I got my laptop last year... Haha... Kk... I better go and sleep now... Continue to mug tomorrow! But will I? :p Haiz... Really no discipline... Yawnz... So sleepy!!

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-12:39 am-

**Hmm..

Suddenly feel so sian... Haiyo... Mood swing liao... Past few days still very happy then now suddenly so sian... Suddenly being very 乖 since the term break, watching all the webcasts, doing all my work, studying for tests... Haha... Right, I wouldn't have to do all that if I did that all along in the first place... But anyway, just suddenly not slacking anymore... Then again, how long can I keep this going? Hmm... Maybe my mood is affected by some other stuff... Haiz... Don't even feel like shopping anymore... Eeeks! Nevermind... Can relax a bit with Linzie next Tuesday... I want Coffee Bean! X)

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-10:37 am-

*Wah!

The weather these few days is a killer. Have not done any shopping yet... On second thoughts I should save some money so I decided not to buy any shoes since I don't always go out nowadays... Hehe... Shall be satisfied with earphones and a shirt or two... Still have textbook, phone bill and travel pass you know... (>.<) And also ink cartridge... And I haven't receive the half of the tuition fee for the first month!! Cos the stupid agent never arrange properly... I'll probably get it this Friday or next Tuesday and in cheque some more... Need another 2 working days to 'materialise' in the account... Wah!!! Many many things to pay for!!

Same old thing:

Why don't money just drop from the sky?

...小猪 heArTs heR dAr (^.^)
-5:24 pm-