haiz... really feel like not working anymore manz....the stupid bitch is like pushing me here and there lor... and she keep twisting and turning her words... wad the shit... haiz... so frustrating...haiz..dun tok abt it le.. tmr i'm faking mc and not going to work... sianz...i want tutees!!grr...i'm so mad at the bitch...

i feel so sad... i have worked at NETS for almost 4 months... last week, i found out dat the stupid bitch(the assistant manager) said that i wasn't her charge when she made me move down to sit beside her and to report my movements to her in the office... she asked me to do her stuff and now how can she say she is not responsible for me?! hell of a BITCH... then i found out that originally they wanted to tell me to come to work on a half day basis a few weeks back but then they dint say anything till now... if they had told me long ago i would have just left and find another job but now it's like neither here nor there cos school's starting soon! how can i quit now even if i want to?! what the f***... NETS have a damn shitty upper management... Don't ever work there... it's the first time someone or something that made me feel like cursing so much... sucks big time man... and then this stupid roadshow at expo... originally the pay was 30 basic and 20 per laptop sold... then suddenly they told me and my frenz to sell pocket pcs and din even have the conscience to tell us it's only 5 bux per item sold... if i din overhear another guy telling his fren about it we would have been kept in the dark still... pocket pcs are so damn difficult to sell and what's more they are not the only company pushing the product, still got other companies selling at the same price and have the same incentives... meaning whatever promo we have, theirs is thes same cos it's the main HP company who's sponsoring all the free gifts... and one pathetic stall got 7 of us trying to sell the pocket pcs... wah lao... really shitty lor... (_ _")
then last Friday when weijie called me, he sounded rather frustrated about something and he said his platoon ppl becoming more and more noisy or sth like that... i asked him why he dint wana say and he just sounded so irritated and told me he wana sleep le... i feel disappointed... that he doesn't share his stuff with me... haiz... then i thot he wana sleep on Saturday so i agreed to help huiling for a 3 hour thing at suntec... then he told me he will not be meeting me cos he'll be going out with his platoon mates... haiz... i'm not upset about this thing cos i noe he's going to have pop soon and they just wana have a gathering... but it's just that my mood has been dampened for the whole week so i can't help feeling moody and unreasonable... you noe... girls... plus i really don't trust his army frenz... i think i've been hearing too many stories about army guys and how they influence each other... haiz... i feel really insecure and uneasy but he don't seem to think it's a big issue... as in i also don't like him to go clubbing with his platoon mates but i never thot of stopping him ma... i just wana noe if he does go to those places cos at least mayb if something should happen in future i would have a xin li jun bei or sth like that... i don't noe... just feel scared and uneasy but then he doesn't seem to take it seriously... haiz... he asked me what i'm so afraid of but how can i say it out? i'm worried that he'll run astray and maybe run away? sounds stupid even to me but i just cant help being scared about it! why doesn't he see... :( and wad's wrong with going to the zoo? haiz... and he have to comment that we have different places of interests... and so i asked him wad's his place of interest then though i already knew wad he would answer with... clubbing... haiz... sometimes i don't understand why guys have to be so insensitive on purpose at the wrong time... i feel really saddened by this issue but i don't think i want to bring it up again... really hope he'll noe and truly understand how much he means to me and how much i care one day... i respect the way he chooses to live his life but at the same time i can't help wishing he won't keep thinking of going to those places...haiz... wad can i do...? mayb i just can't help torturing myself with silly thots every now and then... *sighz*
met him yesterday and we went to maxwell market to have lunch... saw lin and clifford there... wad a coincidence... went back to his house at about 3 pm and spent the rest of the afternoon there... sent him to Pasir Ris and met Eric there again... 3 times le!! every time i send weijie there i'd see him... my goodness... hai... weijie is coughing again... his POP this wednesday... wanted to laugh when i read the 'instructions' for the parade... 'visitors are to be properly attired, no singlets,shorts, bermudas,slippers are allowed. please do not bring big bags' or sth like that... haha... hai... but it made me wonder what i should wear... it's going to be damn freaking hot... hmm... think i should wear a skirt... jeans will make my legs perspire like mad... anyway, think i'm going to Bugis after work today...

hmm... din sleep well yesterday... so tired now... maybe it's becos i'm too used to hearing from weijie every nite... then cannot sleep when i don't hear from him... feel rather uneasy.... though i noe he's ok... anyway, starting the roadshow tomorrow... hmm... maybe things will be more exciting... i'm doing nothing at all now... so sianz... going to run in the evening ltr... badminton was called off cos the courts r all fully booked... sianz...